ASHLEY SMITH
Bio
England based carer, live with my wife, her parents and 4 cats. will write for all areas but especially mental health and disability. though as stuff for filthy seems popular will try there . any comments, suggestions or requests considered
Stories (184/0)
Think twice, tap once
Following todays tragic death of British celebrity Caroline Flack I want to update a piece I wrote elsewhere. In my other piece I talked about celebrity suicides where there was no obvious reason behind it, think Kurt Kobain or Chester Bennington. both massively successful people with millions of fans, a lot of money and a seemingly perfect life. Think more recently of Keith Flint of Prodigy, in the middle of a successful tour and again with millions of fans. In each case there was a reason they took their decision, theories for all but only 3 people know why.
By ASHLEY SMITH4 years ago in Psyche
Am I evil?
Before I explain the details around the question I will begin with the back story, possibly giving mitigation before admitting the actual crime. Many years ago while enduring the end of what was becoming a painful marriage I made a friend through Facebook. Perhaps unusually it was through the chat function in a game, first talking the game and then getting more adult.
By ASHLEY SMITH4 years ago in Humans
LIfes not a dream sweetheart
My mental health is bad at present, mainly a pile up of too many things at once. I know "join the club" , this is just my version of my present reality. One aspect I want to touch on is a part I don't really understand, dreams. These seem first of all to be worse when I am bad , strangely they also seem to be more vivid and memorable.
By ASHLEY SMITH4 years ago in Psyche
my special song
I knew the type of song I wanted to add here but like many people their favourites can change with mood. So I went a little backwards on the rules, I hope that's ok. I thought of the songs that have helped me through bad times, have cheered me up and helped me forget the world for a while. Despite my increasing age nothing beats screaming along to songs with a crowd at a heavy metal or thrash metal concert.
By ASHLEY SMITH4 years ago in Beat
human addiction
I have had relatively few relationships for my age, indeed one of the earliest produced children so it lasted 18 years. Now I am for the first time ever struggling to survive without my fiancé near me. My mental health is poor at the moment, but this need is all very different. I look forward to my odd days off when I have the house to myself, but soon after the day starts, I want her home again. This from someone who spent a while single and was happy in his own company.
By ASHLEY SMITH4 years ago in Humans
I Don't Want to Get Old
After many years of not worrying about aging, I am beginning to worry. I don't know why, as I take birthdays as being another day older rather than a whole year. Its not the aches and pains as I have always had them, in fact I take the Facebook post of "if I woke up and something didn't hurt I would think I was dead" as my own.
By ASHLEY SMITH4 years ago in Longevity
Not Counting Down to Christmas
This is just me possibly, but I am not happily counting to Christmas. I am not a fan usually, but this year is possibly worse. My mental health is bad at present, which doesn't help. I am not religious, but I am beginning to wonder if it is all commercial. It starts in October and seems to go on forever. I admit giving in to the mince pies with use by dates weeks short of Christmas.
By ASHLEY SMITH4 years ago in Psyche
'Good Omens'
This has recently been let loose on amazon prime in a six episode telling of the book of the same name. If I said it’s a Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaimon book, and Neil is involved heavily in the show, then you may guess what it’s like already. A Doctor Who director doesn’t do any harm either.
By ASHLEY SMITH5 years ago in Geeks
Naked Outdoor Photography—The Next Chapter, Part Four
Part three of this tale was following my holiday with my then girlfriend, who has now been promoted to fiancé. I had managed to have her fully topless last year, and a quick shirt lifting boob flash. I write again because its soon time to go again to the same place as before, and make my attempts to try again.
By ASHLEY SMITH5 years ago in Filthy
Finding the One
So the saying goes, there is someone for everyone. The problem is finding them and what you need to get through on the way. The first relationship might not be the one, maybe not the second. In fact, for me, it's the fifth that's the one, around 30 years after I started the first one.
By ASHLEY SMITH5 years ago in Humans