Instead of setting goals, making new plans, and setting up new resolutions for 2019, I have spent a lot of time reflecting on 2018 and what it has taught me for this upcoming new year.
Life is no doubt hard, troubling, stressful, and down right hard. Not everyone has an addiction they turn to when trying to cope with past or current events going on around us, but for some a trip to the liquor cabinet is just the problem solver. For me a night that ended with another empty bottle was a successful ending to my day. Everything in life is still going on but for the time being at least i felt numb to it. I felt like the only good part of my day was when I got to sit down and drink all night till nothing bothered me anymore and until I could fall asleep. Waking up to an empty bottle became so normal that my conscious stopped responding to what I was doing. All day long all I could think about is how I can’t wait to drink again because it was the only time I felt okay. Everything set my addiction off. If I lost my keys, I wanted to drink, if my work day was hard, I wanted to drink, if I stubbed my toe, I wanted to drink. It was my go to problem solver for anything and everything.
At some point in time we have all allowed the opinions and gossip behind our backs by others have the ability to take control of our self worth. Making it possible for others to define us, opinions of others to consume our everyday life, and even worse steal our peace. We are all subjected and nowhere near immune to this kind of joy killer that can come into our lives. The sad part is, if we are honest with ourselves, we’re all guilty of being the product of doing this exact same thing to others because it was done to us. This cycle needs to stop.
Ladies, I’m willing to bet we have all heard at some point in time from a guy these 6 words of “I’m not ready for a relationship.” Often words us women don’t look forward to or know how to take when they say it. And very often it’s followed up with some type of explanation of why he wants to be single or isn’t ready yet.