Is your day is filled with different responsibilities and duties, and some days it’s hard to get time for yourself? If so, this is for you.
Sometimes we need to take a moment reflecting on what we allowed ourselves to go through and apologize for it. Like actually mean it to yourself and change. I'm not saying that I'm going to be perfect from now on and not have slip-ups every once in a blue moon because I'm only human; humans make mistakes. I do, however, need to be kinder to myself and not expect myself to be so perfect. I'm saying that I'm going to try harder and do better treating myself the way I deserve. I spent so long not being so kind to myself and I’m done from here on out abusing myself in this way. I held myself back from doing things I wanted to do because I instilled fear into my bones telling myself "Why even bother trying if you're just going to fail anyway and make a fool out of yourself?" I robbed myself of happiness filling my brain with only negative thoughts; blocking out all the good. I spent so much time inspecting every situation as if it was a science experiment and examining it from every possible angle; even imaginary ones that didn't actually exist.
As many of y’all can relate, I always felt like I needed to respond to every message or every social media post. Like as if I would be missing out on something if I didn’t do so. When in fact, the exact opposite is true… But it’s not just about “playing” hard to get. You should change your mindset to actually “being” hard to get. When you understand your priorities and you’re working to achieve your own goals, your time will truly be limited. Being hard to get doesn’t mean you should become coincided or start pushing people away that actually genuinely care about you. Being hard to get to me means that you’re done giving free time to others who don’t show how valuable and meaningful it is that you’re giving them that type of attention. It’s not selfish or wrong to pull away from those people because it will never be worth giving them free time.
Like a majority of society, it seems everyone has experienced anxiety and depression. To me, they’re major illnesses because firsthand, I spent years battling them both along with going through traumatizing life events. I felt like I was constantly being slapped in the face everywhere I turned, and this for sure didn’t help my case or struggle. I could point the finger and blame others for my anxiety and depression, but there comes a point where you realize it’s something going on within yourself, something you need to take care of because nobody else will, and it has to be healed. That’s where I found myself realizing I deserved to be free from these things, and it was going to take me taking the steps to make something happen. I guess I won’t say all of us, but a lot of people have a past, a story, and a reason for why they’re messed up with anxiety and depression. Trust me, I get this, but what I want you to get is that you don’t need to suffer anymore because of it.
I am by no means a chef so please don’t judge me based off my skills that I have learned on my own or from watching other people. I have always said I would be a vegetarian but I can’t give up on my steak loving problem, hence me sharing my steak recipe. (Sorry, vegan readers! You probably shouldn’t have opened this blog of mine.) Maybe one day I will have the willpower to never eat steak again but not today or tomorrow.