Just an amateur writer giving personal experiences and advice about different topics. Writing everything that comes to my mind.
Finding out I was an INFP
What is astrology and how it’s supposed to work For the longest time, I used to base my personality on my astrological sign: Taurus. I can see a lot of the similarities between the characteristics of my personality and my sign. However, personalities based on the specific position of things in the universe are located in the universe. Can they be accurate or not?
Rejection has been a challenging topic for me since November 2019. I‘ve dealt with a lot of rejection which I will eventually go into in this story, for someone who takes things very personally and gets emotional about things. I take rejection quite personally, too personally.
Why I hate myself
Hopeful this won’t be too long. I knew I would become a disappointment to my parents eventually. I have two very loving parents who have given me everything, but I have only disappointed them with my negativity. I feel I will never be good enough at anything I want to pursue. I think I can’t retain the knowledge to its depth or retain it quickly. Often, it’s hard even to recall information, explaining and forgetting simple words in a sentence. I always feel there is something wrong with me, that I couldn’t be in a job learning a lot of information because I couldn’t contain it all.
Figuring out I was maladaptive daydreaming
Recently I discovered the condition known as Maladaptive Daydreaming, the condition causes intense daydreaming that distracts a person from their real life. Many times, real-life events trigger day dreams. These events can include:
Trying to find a spark when dating
It’s going to be a year since I’ve had my break up and with Covid-19 surrounding us, dating has become very difficult for me. Having to result in using dating apps is great but gets very boring after a while. I miss the days just being able to go out and meet new people, especially at university, such a great time.
Moving to an Electric vehicle
The transport sector is now the largest source of C02 in the UK, accounting for over a quarter of emissions in 2017. Road transport makes up 85% of emissions. In 2017, vehicle emissions rose for the first time in 17 years.
Is there a one?
I thought I found the one, surprisingly someone I never thought I could even imagine being within a relationship. We were so different, we still are, in my opinion. However, when telling myself this person was the one, I might not have found that person. I just convinced myself to believe in it. They were giving me what I never thought I could ever ask for in a relationship, but they also gave me something I never wanted to experience. Betrayal, my feelings not being heard and just not being able to communicate our issues.
The nice guy with no boundaries
In any relationship, boundaries are crucial. Being in a relationship, you need to understand that you are the highest authority to yourself. Healthy boundaries allow yourself to take better care of yourself – emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. I had to learn the hard way when my partner was crossing my boundaries.