I have always had issues when it comes to sleep. As a kid, I never needed much, yet was always forced to bed by my parents' strict bedtime rules. When I got to be a teenager, I could stay up all night long living on as little as two to four hours of sleep.
I knew it was coming. I have been telling you for months. Now I just hope that alcohol/drug-induced high was worth everything that it has now cost you, me, and our family.
Here it is another Friday night and what am I doing, sitting at home all alone, but enjoying the peace and quiet. My AH left for work this morning as per usual, on the days he actually decides to work, that is.
I stumbled upon this site by accident, and the more I looked into it the more I found that this might just be the perfect place to share the details of my life. Things I don't want anyone else to know, things I am feeling that I feel no one else would ever understand.
Sometimes you just have to cut people out of your lives and move on. I have tried with all of my might to remain considerate and polite throughout the handling of my husband's estate.
How can I make these bad thoughts go away? I truly believe in Karma and I do not like putting all this negative energy out into the world, but I do not know how to control it.