I’m dying, bleeding to death in front of a whole crowd. Not one seems to notice a thing; they just look and keep going. They walk back and forth right on a pile of blood. Do they see it? Is it really invisible or am I invisible? I try to move but I’m stuck right where I stand, I watch my blood pour right out of me. I’m crying looking for help but there’s no one in sight to help me. Once again I’m left alone; I fall to the ground looking up. I watch the bright blue sky turn into black, as I lay there I feel my whole body and soul break into pieces. Numb is all I feel I’m just so over everything that I don’t mind being alone. This world has become so cruel that it makes me question my own existence. Everything that I thought was real became a fantasy and everything that I thought was fake became reality. I gave my all to get back nothing but pain and disguise. It seems like there’s no light on the other end, all that can be seen is fog. Not a sound is made just lay in silence, always have been afraid to be in my own thoughts. Never seems to get easier when your heart wants one thing but your thoughts always interfere. I’m concisely fighting with myself is that even normal? My demons seem to always be winning, will this fight ever end?
Music is my life; when I want to get away from the world I put my headphones on and away I go. I go to a place where no one can ever dream of. I go to a dream world where everything is great where there are no worries. That’s what happens when music is in my system. It takes my mind off of everything that’s happening in my life. Sometimes I just need some time away from reality and go to a fantasy world. Hard to explain what it does to me, the sound the words to certain songs. It lifts me up to another dimension; it’s just so fascinating how something so simple can take you away from everything. It just blocks this cruel place we call the world. With everything that’s going on, just need to escape. There are all types of music that could take you to all types of places. Just got to let your mind wander and see where it takes you, you will be surprised.
She took my heart in her hands and promised she wouldn’t break it or hurt it in any way. Now I’m standing here with my heart in my hands shattered into pieces. With no feeling at all and numb to the bone, I wasn’t planning on letting anyone else in my heart. I let it fall to the ground walked away and left it there for the wind to take away. As I laid in the dark alone with thoughts running through my mind trying to look for answers to questions that won’t ever be answered. The way it ended and the things that were said stay’s stuck in my head. How can someone like that just change out of nowhere?
I’m really amazed in the room I have created, could only imagine the fun I’m going to have. Thinking of who will be my first victim, I have plenty, but only two come to mind, and it brings a smile to my face. This just leads to one question, which one goes first? Who is the one that’s going to get a taste of the chains that's hanging from the ceiling? A bigger smile forms on my face, as I touch them while walking by it, making my way to the other side of the room where the rest of the fun is at. The big black closet is where I hold my precious toys. The closer I get to the closet, the more excited I hear them get.