Solo female walker
Do our mistakes really make our fate? If that is true, then every mistake I have ever made has led me to this place, but where was that? Last year I was thinking about leaving my husband. Last year I was thinking about my first hike, I was planning and learning. I was ill, I was in pain and wondering what was I doing? Was it a mistake when I bought my first day pack and walking boots? I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt. I shouldn’t have been spending so much money on myself when there were things like food to buy and it was that overwhelming guilt which led me to not walking at all that weekend, or the next. My day pack and walking boots stayed hidden in my wardrobe for another month, who was I to start spending money on myself? spending days on my own when I should have been rebuilding my relationship with my husband. Was I being selfish? Fact is, I’ve never really been in the driver’s seat of my own life. I’m a people pleaser and would regularly put other people’s needs before my own.
How getting Rid of All My Old Underwear Was Lifechanging
I hear my friends talk about their sexy underwear, the corsets they wear on the weekends, the French knickers and push up bras, in general that feel good factor you feel just before getting into bed with their husbands. I remembered that feeling well, ever since my teens I always wore nice/sexy underwear, but after hitting my 40s and my husband throwing away most of my sexy underwear, I seemed to of stopped caring however, I didn’t realize just how much I stopped caring.
It takes a global pandemic to make you see.
There is nothing like a global pandemic to make us realise how realient and adaptable we really are. We have been grounded by this virus, this parent we never even asked for, something not even our own parents could do but here we are, grounded! Like lost little children, crying for the pubs to reopen, but here we are, locked away inside our homes, but it made us realise how much stuff we thought we needed that we don’t. So many of us have been clearing out our personal junk, disconnecting with people we thought we needed and reconnecting with people we haven’t spoken to in months or even years. This pandemic has forced us to simplify ourselves and become more creative in our personally lives, it has forced us to reconnect using social media and talk to family members on zoom. Dinner dates over video chat and if we don’t like the way the date is going, we can turn off.
Uncertainty right now
Just over three weeks of the UK being on lock-down and I’ve lost count of the days. There is a lot of uncertainty right now, the world has changed, people are blaming the government, the government is blaming china, china is blaming the US army, Donald trump referred to it as the Chinese virus, but under that all it’s the general public that its really effected.
Day 9 of lock-down, you don'y need anyone's permission.
Day 9 of lock-down, I’ve been reflecting a lot over these past week, looking through my old journals and online posts, for the first time in years I have had the time to look over my writing and see how its changed over the years. It’s crazy to think that most of the country is sitting at home in lock-down, while people are still working in the NHS, the police are still on the streets and lorry drivers and shop workers are still going about their daily lives.
Day 6 of Lockdown in the UK
Its day 6 of lock-down and I’m still in a state of shock, it’s hard to imagine that it was only a few weeks ago we was all getting on with our lives, I was just coming back from a course in wales, walking to the local pub to meet my daughters and planning with them our 4 day holiday in April, now everything is on hold, life has simply stopped.
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