It's month four working armed security in Afghanistan, and I find myself working tower guard alone. THANK GOD. Working alone seems to drive everyone else crazy, but I find it serene and peaceful being able to consume my own thoughts, no constant stress of always having a straight face, no bullshit attitude towards literally everyone around me. Why this particular attitude? Because if I don't watch my every single move, or gesture for that matter, I will be eaten up and spit out quickly in this man's world I've volunteered for.