Trusting others is really a process of getting to know and trust oneself. When we begin to listen to our inner gut instincts and follow the directions that our senses give us, then we can begin to trust our own emotional selves rather than having to put trust anywhere else. Many people will write about how to build trust with others in relationships, but few write about the process of building a personal relationship with oneself in order to hold the capacity for trusting others. Many discuss this topic as though we want to be able to trust someone else, but the foundational building blocks come from first empowering an individual to trust oneself to make good decisions.
After watching a video update by The Leo King, David Palmer, he said something that really struck me. He said that the influences today are similar to those back in 1996. I gave this a good amount of thought because it relates to what I’ve been feeling in a lot of different ways. I feel that the collective unconscious is going through this same transformation now.
One day during probably one of the worst times I struggled with trauma, I had a daydream. I saw myself as a young child, maybe 7 years old. I was in a dark well. It looked like I had fallen so deep into the well that I couldn't see the light of day anymore. _Was it day or night?_ I wasn't sure. It was just total darkness. I sobbed and cried but nobody could hear me. I screamed for help and not a soul could hear. Nobody would come. My throat was tight, and my lips were dry and cracked. I was parched. I said and pulled my knees close into my chest. It just felt better to be crumpled up into a ball. It allowed me some body heat or at least the idea of it.
As I look back over my life, instead of seeing a victim, I see someone who was strong enough to survive and has managed to turn out to be a pretty decent person despite all of the challenges I've faced. I had an upbringing marked by childhood sexual abuse by my uncle and the dysfunctional family that worked to hide my father's alcoholism. Due to trauma, I developed PTSD. I'm also bipolar which is commonly passed on in families. I believe my father self-medicated his bipolar disorder with drugs and alcohol.
I was surprised to learn that many Americans do not understand basic science because somehow we all forgot that masks have been working to protect doctors for so many years now that it's silly that experts have to waste their time explaining something as simple as masks to the public. Why do they have to waste so much time doing experiments to prove that masks work without harming us? It boggles my mind.
Late in the evening Tuesday, July 14th, healthcare administration was surprised to find out that the hospital data on coronavirus patients will now be sent directly to the Trump administration instead of being first sent to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) by Wednesday, July 15th. This is an appalling move that leaves many questioning the motives behind such a move. Why did the Trump administration decide to cut ties with the World Health Organization, now the CDC, and continuously attempt to discredit everything Dr. Fauci has said about the pandemic?