About you...
There's something about you that drives me mad in ways that I never thought it was possible - the way you hide things that you have no reason to, the way you seem to look fine doing it and talk to me like you don't care if I know... In the way this makes me upset and leaves me tired of confusing jealousy with disappointment... There's "something" that tells me about it - call it intuition or just a developed, yet unconscious, perception that you change your ways when it happens - sometimes it also tells me you do it, so you won't have to deal with me if I decide to leave. There's an angst in my chest, that tells me I should leave, and there is another angst that don't want to lose you. There's love, hate, fear and something more that I can't even name... There is a heart that is hurting, there are lungs that refuse to breath, and an entire scream that sounds like your name choking me while refusing to get out. There's a bitter and a sweet taste that never seem to blend together... There's passion and a poison, that I still drink like it's water. There's Me, and there's You - but I struggle to see We sometimes. There are times that we are everything, then this everything seems to change, and we turn into nothing at all... I have this feeling sometimes that you look more real than anything I know - but sometimes I wonder if you are just another story I've created in my mind to escape while I refuse to face the reality...
