Alsu Gara

Joined February 2021

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Ukraine born. Canada based.

Aspiring poet. Future investigative journalist.

Verbalizing previously unspoken thoughts.

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Faded Misery, My Lost Defense
Today, I felt nostalgic. I was going through the songs that I used to obsess over in middle school and I couldn’t help but feel weird about it. The songs that I played today were my go-to comfort songs at some of the worst times of my life, and now when I listen to them years later, when I’m not at my worst anymore, it feels strange. Today, I googled “is it weird to miss the times when you were sad?” I didn’t really look through the search results though. I realized that although I’ve spent quite a long time in my life holding onto my misery, today I am emotionally stronger than I’ve ever been. I have to be. I wouldn’t have missed my misery if I were still holding onto it, right?
By Alsu Gara3 years ago in Motivation
What if we reincarnated into the intangible?
She dreams of reincarnating into a butterfly and he dreams to be a lion in his next life. But if I were to see this world again, I would want to be the idea of love. The warm feeling in the stomach when you remember the good times. The blocking force in the throat when you confess. I want to reincarnate into the thought that everything will be alright. I want to be the spirit of drunk laughter and the wind in the face of a dancing lover. You know, the feeling of nostalgia towards the times you never lived and deja-vu that catches you off guard. I want to be the first words of a child and the last family goodbyes. I want to be the idea of missing someone, the idea that somewhere out there our past still is. How beautiful would it really be to reincarnate into a feeling, rather than a touch.
By Alsu Gara3 years ago in Poets
Notes On Derealization: NO.3
I hide soft tiny whispers in the cracks of my phantom limbs, of which the darkness will guard the prophecies of my desired being.
By Alsu Gara3 years ago in Poets
THREE LESSONS ON FORGIVENESS FOR THE STUBBORN AND THE HURT
If you clicked on this article, you’re probably someone who finds it hard, if not impossible, to forgive the ones who’ve hurt you. I can say the same for myself. During my journey with forgiveness, I stumbled upon the hard-hitting realization that forgiveness might be one of the hardest lessons I would have to learn. It’s true, forgiveness is not easy, and you shouldn’t guilt yourself for being unable to forgive. It’s hard to find the right reasons to pardon when you don’t believe that the person who has hurt you deserves it. It’s even harder when most advice revolves around trusting God or being the bigger person. Well, I don’t believe in God, and I think the idea of being the bigger person is overrated - you don’t get any rewards for that. It’s a painful choice that brings no profit. These have never been good enough reasons for me to forgive someone who’s brought me a lot of pain, so I took the time to make up my reasons. If you’re like me, stay and let me share with you my findings in hopes that it becomes at least a little easier for you to let go of the unnecessary weight on your heart and finally move on.
By Alsu Gara3 years ago in Humans