I’ve struggled with combination skin for pretty much my entire adolescent and adult life, and I’ve always had such a hard time finding decent moisturizers to fit my skin type. In the winter my skin gets ridiculously dry in certain spots, but for basically the rest of the year, my face gets super oily around my nose, forehead, and even my chin. Since my skin is so finicky, especially living in New England with constantly changing seasons, it leaves me really prone to breakouts and shiny skin (the bad kind of shiny—like, greasy shiny). No matter which products I would try, nothing seemed to minimize my oily skin and still help to moisturize the dry spots. It can get really frustrating when you can’t seem to find the right skincare products, even when you spend a bunch of money and time to try to find the best ones.
I used to feel trapped by the thoughts in my head. Constantly, I would be pushed and pulled back and forth, dragged down by my mind and my heart, not knowing which way was up. I felt like there was no escape, no way to let out all of the bad things, the uneasy feelings, the confusion that weighed heavy on me for so long. So I kept everything inside, and felt like a burden when I opened up to others, even if they told me it wasn’t true. Talking helped, but it also hurt enough to not want to do it too much.