Strong Enough

I’m so tired of screaming

Why do I pretend to be okay

When in fact the world is caving around me

Everything feels F’d up

I’m tired of feeling like I’m drowning

Like I’ll never be able to catch my breathe

Like I’ve died just a little more each day

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My world is collapsing

I’m shaking, barely able to stand on my own two feet

Petrified to take one more step forward as the world crumbles

It feels like there’s nothing here for me

It feels like I’ve got nothing to live for

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Darkness and pain sit on my soul

I’m praying just to be released

My heart is so ready to let go

I’m so tired of feeling

Of knowing this hurt and pain

Of knowing that there might not be an ending

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This world has been so cruel

Would you hear me if I was screaming right next to you?

Would you even acknowledge the pain you’ve caused?

Why do I pretend to be okay?

When I’m curled up in a ball

Trying to hide away in the dark corner of the room.

Trying to remember how to breathe

When all I have is this darkness suffocating my spirit.

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Are you happy?

To have embraced this power over me.

Are you glad that I hurt so much?

Are you happy to see the pain on my face?

Can you feel the darkness?

Can you see that you removed the light and started embracing the darkness?

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Overpowering

Towering over me while I cower in the corner

I can’t escape

I can’t catch my breathe

I’m trying to hold on

I’m trying to remember that I’m strong enough to live through you