I'm so used to it
How can I say no to it?
I wish I could make a note out of it
Write it down and let everyone know
I'm a young woman with an addiction
An addiction to chaos
I've been through a tough loss
I wanted to pay the cost
Make it come back
Even though it makes me sad
I would rather lay in a sack
Get tortured without any remorse
I get hurt until I cannot move anymore
I tried to get up and move on
But it keeps coming back
I enjoyed it before it became a wreck
I ended it
Then I come back to it
I want to drown in it
Sink into the bottom of the dark ocean and not come back again
Stay there and Remain there hollow
I hear the lies I swallow
I wish I could throw them out
Vomit the lies from my throat
Never come back in
I can be extreme
My friends tend to tease
I'm so on and off like a light switch
Keep it going on and on
It's hard to carry on
I tend to go off
Out of control without the attention from drama
I wanted some karma
I'm over this drama
But I come to it
Go through it
I knew what I was doing
It's my life
I'm sticking by my side
I love the lies
I love the hurt
I love the cheat
Even though I would have a hard time sleep
I need some bad chaos
Savor it like a spicy sauce
I felt lost
I want what I want
The good, the bad, the sweet chaos
I don't want to get it off
I'm at fault
I'm addicted to the sauce
The chaotic sauce
I'm a young adult with an addiction
An Addiction to chaos
About the Creator
Gladys W. Muturi
Hello, My name is Gladys W. Muturi. I am an Actress, Writer, Filmmaker, Producer, and Mother of 1.
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