What's It Gonna Take

I think I'm in love... Mostly with the way you see me. Sometimes I don't want to be seen and I've tried to push you away, even packed up my things and moved away. But your love is like the ocean, it pulls me back in and forces me to stay.

We talk everyday now. I tried to hold on tighter as the days got longer, you pushed back then sprang forward. Words were said that didn't matter... I was upset and you were mad at me... It had little or nothing to do with me. Now we talk everyday, all throughout the day and you say reassuring things like "I pray you continue to brighten everyone's day..."

You are definitely one of a kind... We both like to wander, explore, share very similar interests and activities... Earth shaking, soul-making love everytime our bodies connect in this universe. Yet you love the time we spend, the conversations we have and the jokes... We constantly laugh together...

Do I have what it takes to keep you here? Loving me? I say how I feel and you agree... Is that it or should I be asking for a certain level of integrity? It's only been two months but it feels like an eternity, or, were we married in another lifetime and slipping into my DM's after meeting in acting class was the way back to each other?

I guess that time will tell... You said that distance makes the heart grow fonder and I believe that it has... Do I let you go to let you in? Is a lifetime enough? Can we try in this one? Am I enough? You are... for me... In every way... heart beating with joy... I didn't think friendship in love was possible but here you are, daily making it my reality.

I'm not afraid to say "I love you." I said it first... I refused to accept it when my ex said it, seeing it as a challenge even... He keeps calling by the way... It's really aggravating because I have nothing to say... Maybe he feels my heart belonging to another and he's desperately trying to secure my love. He thinks we're soulmates and maybe that's true but it definitely doesn't change the way I feel about you.

What Does It Take to fall in love? Is it a simple smile? A noticeable energy that immediately calls out to yours like a magnet to a stove? Can this keep going? And Going? And Going? Please... don't make it stop... My heart has only started healing now and you're the cure for every bit of break I've felt and endured. Please don't go. What's it gonna take to keep you here, not quite my shadow, more like my light... You definitely make my world more bright. I love you Phillip Anthony. Even your name has a meaning... It's incredible actually... Maybe this was meant to be, this being you and me.