I keep losing
I lost many freedoms
My legs lost their memory of how it felt to run
Now they gained dependence to a walker
I wonder when the two will divorce and leave me to do what I want
I lost friends
Or let’s be realistic
People who used me until they were good
Individuals who understood that my heart was gullible
People you knew my heart and how to take from me
Humans who understood that my soul needed company
They never called, or texted.
I still remember when one of the shallow ones asked for a picture during Covid to see if I was still at all pretty
Same woman who said I would never be as pretty because I was not the shape of a Barbie
The same woman who said for a light skinned girl people don’t think I am as pretty
I lost many freedoms but learning only temporary
I lost many people, but they are just a part of my distant history
I keep losing men, but most say they don’t date cripples
I keep losing parts of my identity but maybe because it is supposed to be a memory
I have changed and now gained new perspective
I have grown and have been showed new aspirations
I lost so much but I have gained a new identity
Sometimes losing means preparing for your new destiny
So, walker
Our relationship is not one I am enjoying, but I am for once using you in the relationship
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