I don't want to imagine another time
A contemporary poem which explores that barriers between loss and life.
another place where you don't exist in-between
the folds of time. that's where I find the longing
in the places that you left far behind. to take me
there would be another thing. and that's not a
place you're ready to fall yet. me? i take a turn
and then another. i am forever folding myself
up like so many pieces of a napkin left dirty for
the meal it couldn't hold. is it warm where you
are? is there smiling in the sun and dancing to
the songs you never liked? i wonder what kind
of hell you've made. what kind of choices you
allow to get under your skin. made in another
time, you weren't meant for a world that didn't
want your pain. needlessly resilient, watching
you take on the dawn was to witness a falling
start. graceless and insecure was on the dress
you wore. and in that time we knew there was
nothing else to be said. i don't want to imagine
another time. in another place. in another bed.
i don't want to imagine another way of being
or that longing in the places between the pain
you left behind. i don't want to imagine your
face. flecks of gold laced in amber. i don't see
another way i could imagine any less. to you
there is nothing but the setting sun. to me a-
nother year awaits. i don't want to imagine
you in it. i don't want to imagine you here.
tomorrow we will mourn your memory but
today we hold fast to the fact that
you are gone and we are freed.
© 2022 E.B. Johnson
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E.B. Johnson
I like to write about the things that interest me.
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