They speak on repeat to "count your blessings",
but some days I can only seem to
count
the
anxieties.
Pick a day. Any day. Friday? Friday.
I'm leaving the house on Friday. When did I leave the house last?
Tuesday? Sooner than I expected. Or wanted.
Going out on Friday, to meet, to meet, wait,
When is the last time I actually met with an actual human in an actual place, actually?
Don't know. Move on.
I don't usually wear makeup but my face looks awful without makeup I need makeup to hide the scabs but I barely know how to wear makeup.
I can't make this stuff up.
I have to wear makeup and go to a place at a time to meet a person and- wait again, I'll need to shower. Start again.
I have to shower and put on makeup to go to a place at a time to meet a person and then put on a smile and put on a- wait, one more,
I'll be wearing a mask. Shit.
I have to wake up and eat enough breakfast and shower and put on makeup? and put on nice clothes! to be driven to a place at a time to meet a person I have never met before and smile? under my mask and then speak.
Speak. Speak and counter-speak.
And THEN I come home. And THEN I go to work. And THEN I cook dinner.
But hey, if I counted those anxieties too,
you'd be here all day.
And you probably have things you're counting, too.
So feel free to go away.
About the Creator
Rebekah Conard
31, She/Her, a big bi nerd
How do I write a bio that doesn't look like a dating profile? Anyway, my cat is my daughter, I crochet and cross stitch, and I can't ride a bike. Come take a peek in my brain-space, please and thanks.
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