Childhood Wishes
An early Mother's Day poem for my mama.
Once again, at this time of year,
I find myself wishing you were here,
and I feel like
a whiny child.
I'm missing me, and I'm missing you,
each one was taken much too soon
and I'd like to
wallow for a while.
This happens to me every year,
where I'm so small, and you're still here
and I do
all the things I should
I paint my handprint on a card,
create a macaroni heart.
I write to you a silly poem
that lets you know you are my home
and sometimes
I want to be a kid again
But she went away,
when you couldn't stay
I miss the you I never knew.
I miss the me I couldn't be
I don't know what it's all about
Why I can't throw these feelings out.
Maybe next year.
If you could hear, then I would say
That I figured out how to be okay
And mostly
I feel so strong
So I take the love that I think you'd give
and I use it in every way I live;
that's how
I learned to get along.
There are so many women just like me
missing this one important link
Dreaming of life if she could've stayed
And maybe
someday, they'll be ok
Just on another day...
About the Creator
Sandra Matos
I write so that people will remember me. I make art for the same reason. I had a mother that I never knew. Who she was, how she smelled, or what she valued. I don't want anyone to wonder who I was.
Comments (6)
Sandra, this is just so mournful. I can feel the longing in it and the sadness. This is a wonderful way to honour your mum.
Oh no! I am emotional! If I could be with you to erase your misery!😢
This made me so emotional. Sending you lots of love and hugs 🥺❤️
Sandra, this was heartbreakingly beautiful. I can't imagine losing my mum so young. Significant birthdays and anniversaries must be so hard. Wishing you all the very best. Just take care and go easy on yourself.
Mothering ourselves is one of those things that doesn't get spoken aloud. You did it so beautifully. {{huggs}} from another motherless daughter
This poem, and your bio paragraph together just hit me hard. Sending you ❤️❤️❤️