Without You

I’ve planned for plenty of things as I’ve gone through my life

Parties need guest lists, food, and activities

Classes and tests have to be studied for

It all needs some level of planning to be the best it can

I’ve planned for my future

For going off to college and choosing a degree

I’ve looked at houses and thought about decorating styles

I’ve imagined getting married and having kids of my own

I’ve done what I can to plan for the unexpected

For last minute changes in plans

For unexpected monsoons when I forgot my umbrella

Plan B’s and C’s became second nature

But I never could have planned for this

For countless moments where any words fail

Not knowing what the next day will hold

Or even if how to get through the current day

I couldn’t plan for grief

The instant upheaval of everything once familiar

The crumbling foundations I built my entire life on

When all I’ve known is ripped from me without mercy

So, how do you move forward with no plan

No idea of what to say, very little idea of what you really feel

When trying to make it just five minutes

without falling apart is an impossibility

I never planned to find myself drowning

In an endless sea of nothing

When words all failed, all went silent

Thoughts, words, feelings, and everything else faded away

Plans get made but always fall through

Since I never planned for life without you